Families

I am not talking about my immediate family i.e. husband and four children but other (so called) family members here.

I had the wind taken from my sails last week - I found some nasty things written about me on an Internet blog. There is an old saying that goes something like "you can think it, but you cant say it", oh I don't know the saying but you get the gist. Well this was written, and it shocked me at the desperate measures some people would go to to try damage my family, and my reputation of being a good mother and wife. Well it didn't work - sure I was hurt, and to be perfectly honest I was devastated that such things could be said about me.

That person wont win, never, ever - I will always be better than she. I guess I don't have to live with her, and that I am thankful of. Those writings which I discovered led to a family dispute which ended up in me questioning the last 37 years of my life. With both my natural parents dead now - the people I thought loved me, I have discovered don't - turns out everything was a charade. Past 30 odd years of believing gone because people took sides, rather than facing up to a few days of disharmony and discussions.

My children are devastated. I broke the news to my eldest this week he knew something was wrong so we decided not to lie to him, and my second eldest came to realise things were not right either. Tears shed, young fragile spirits broken and sadly they got their first taste of real hurt - I ache for them.

8th May 2008 - Seb's operation

I wish I had more to say this evening, but I am utterly exhausted so I will spare you the gory bits and keep this short.

He made it through! Seb had his operation and mummy survived although ten very short fingernails later. I know this is routine stuff but it is quite overwhelming sitting there whilst people work around you trying to put your baby to sleep for an operation.
They had to stick him a number of times in both hands and feet - he was just determined not to make it easy. In the end the anaesthetist gave him gas and from there on in it was plain sailing (thank goodness - I don't think I would have coped).

He recovered quickly and got home this afternoon which was great for the family too. Toni had been upset all morning, last time she knew someone go into hospital they passed away so I think this was playing on her mind.
and Sol - well she didn't miss me much, just her 'ga-gums' which is her word for the milk which only I can supply.

DEAR DIARY (2nd May 2008)

Lunch was at 12 today, and that was the end of formal lessons as the children have worked particularly hard this week. The weather was too nice to stick around the house so we packed a picnic and headed into the village. Three hours playing hide and seek, making daisy chains, playing with two other children we met, went by unnoticed.

A brief visit to the park put the children in good stead for the walk home.

We stopped at the post office to cash a postal order, and the children ended up helping the post man! They helped empty the pillar box, the Mag & Seb proceeded to carry the parcels and mail bags out to the van, chatting all the while with the friendly post man. We know the post master well, so there is no issue about this, in fact its nice to be able to do this sort of thing as it would not happen in the city!

On the walk home we came across a friendly man operating a small digger outside a house he was doing work on. The digger driver noticed the Seb watching him intently so he put on a little ‘digger display’ for us. He demonstrated how he could lift his bucket up and down, and managed to scoop up some tools for us too – we thanked him and went on our way. By the time we got home it was tea time and this is where I will end.

29th April 2008

Returning from the hospital - Tuesday night and feeling like I dont want to do anything more today. this was Seb's pre op appointment for next Thursday. He is having vents in his ears and his adenoids removed, I think he needs it as his right ear wasn't even measuring on the scale today when they tested him. not much more to say about that, otherwise fit and healthy and not even caring what is going to happen to him.

I did have a bad case of MBS (mummy brain syndrome) today, somehow I thought Toni had her Rainbows display tonight - turns out I am only a month wrong - thank goodness I re read her letter instead of turning up.

Mag had his BB display last night - he got his gold badge for being there 7 years and a trophy for being best all round boy which I am really proud of him for. this is his last year, and then he moves on to a company section. the leaders all spoke very highly of him.

I faked it

My sun tan that is. I hate how that stuff smells so I always put in on an hour before I shower, that way I get the tan without the icky coconut smell. I love coconut but this stuff stinks. Sitting here smelling icky I thought I had better give you a quick update...

We had another busy week last week. The highlight if it had to have been a visit to a friend from our home education group. That's how I met her, but I think now we have become good friends which is nice. Anyways - she is pregnant, very pregnant with baby due in a couple months its pretty obvious. On arrival, Seb after doing his obligatory toilet inspection, decided to tell my friend that she was fat. Quite bold about it, and thank goodness she is pregnant otherwise I might have just had to turn and leave there and then LOL. The visit went well, although it was late when we left and I think everyone was exhausted. We had hot dogs on the way home and the kids fell into bed tired and happy.

The following day, or maybe day after Seb was thinking about my "fat friend" (sorry no offence meant D.), this was obviously playing on his mind. He went into playgroup and told everyone that I was having baby! They asked him "are you sure?", and yes he was so sure about that. My friend who runs the playgroup was explaining how I wasn't pregnant to Ellis as she knows I would have told her, but he kept on insisting. So it looks I am having a baby too - LOL I wish I had that excuse for my stomach.

The weekend brought another further incident regarding our windows *sigh* one of those weeks, we discovered one of the 8ft double glazed windows in the TV room had broken, huge cracks running all over it. Total loss as to how it happened, so now we need to get that seen to. KERCHING KERCHING I can see this will cost a few pounds.

The window escapades over we had three parties to go to, come Sunday night the kids had so many e-numbers and junk food they were high as kites ... at least they had fun, and a week of detoxing is underway.

26th April 2008

Here she is Miss T - tooth no2 gone! Another 18 dramas to go. Less said the better .

I want to write more on my week but the children are fighting over balloons right now *sigh*, I am going to pop them.

House Stuff

We have been working hard the last few weeks trying to get the kids rooms back in order. the children are sharing just now - boys together, girls together .... we do actually have 5 bedrooms but Roy has taken over the main room as his office and the other room is used for storage just now though that is going to change soon. We have plans submitted to the planning office to extend out house and make an office for Roy as well as a new kitchen, family room, additional bathroom and utility room. We also have submitted plans to demolish our garage and rebuild but with a second story creating more space - I think the hope is eventually that Roy will move out there - his office - not him literally OR make it into kids playroom and a learning room ... I dont like say classroom but it explains to you what I mean by learning room. Dear knows where all the money is coming from. I can see that we will have to split the building project into two or three phases but we will worry about that when the plans are through!

Anyway, cut through the rambling now as I want to show off the boys room ...

The photos are stitched so to speak so its a stretched out version and definitely not in proportion ....





the light fitting which they love





And a wall hanging which we have made from an old quilt stretched over a wooden frame. Mag was upset about getting new bedding and not being able to use his old ..... so we made a wooden frame and stapled the old quilt cover on it. Its not hung yet but will be dont this weekend with a bit of luck ....



Now I just need to work on the boys keeping the room tidy - just now all their toys are heaped in the TV room, I am hoping on moving them in today.


OTHER house stuff ...
Our bathroom window hinges are banjaxed so we had take the window out to get them fixed ...all day yesterday we sat in draughts! The window shop needed to see the whole thing, we got new brackets and hinges now thank goodness.

here it is ..... and a sneaky of my bathroom